In sha Allah, as I mentioned earlier I am going to go back to using my original name. It has become strange, impractical, and uncomfortable to use two names, one name in the Muslim community and another name outside of the community.
I remember reading Queen Noor’s book in which she spoke about having to be firm with her family to force them to recognize her conversion and name change. My family, co-workers, and friends I knew before my conversion call me one name, and my Muslim friends call me another name. I was in the car recently with my mother and a friend and they were each calling me by a different name.
I thought of legally changing my name but have decided against it. So the only thing for me to do is to re-assert my name change back to my original name. I figure that since we are in the blessed month of Ramadan that this would be the best time to make the announcement of the change. I pray that Allah azza wa jal makes it easy for me. I’m not exactly sure what I will say but I think it go something like this:
Random Sister: Asalamu alaykum sister …
Muslim Apple: Wa alaykum salaam, call me …
Random Sister: Why?
Muslim Apple: Because I’ve decided to keep my original name.
Random Sister: Ok, how do you pronounce that again?
Random Sister: Am I saying it right?
Random Sister: So, why did you change your name again?
In sha Allah, I’m going to begin the name change back tonight.